ആ താരകം "അങ്ങകലെ നിന്നു മിന്നു" ന്നുണ്ടോന്നു അറിയില്ല.. 14 വർഷം..
As I grow older,
You are evolving inside me faster,
I hear your voice within me more often,
I knowingly disobey the voice,
as I don't want to live "selfless"ly for the ones I love and then be you..
I love myself, I care for my happiness..
The lesson I have learnt in the hardest way possible from your life after you left!
But the mother in me is 95% you, but with tons of pampering and "display" of affection !
I was aghast when I saw you laughing and playing with my 7 year old cousin when we shifted to our home in pathanamthitta (and she used to spend most of the time playing with me..)
Because never once have you "showed" that emotion to me.. I was 10 years old then. I still remember the shock I felt at that age when I knew that you "knew" to laugh, play with kids, hug and pamper them..
എന്തിനാരുന്നു? May be because you felt that if you were soft on me, I wouldn't listen to you?
I know I haven't reached anywhere that you would have wanted me to.. But if I weren't your daughter - I wouldn't even be here and still holding my head high and moving forward with a smile! That strength in me comes from you (and pappa too - his "പാലം കുലുങ്ങിയാലും കേളൻ കുലുങ്ങത്തില്ല" gene).
